God’s Loving-kindness

Your loving-kindness oh God, is before my eyes, as I walk and stand in your presence. How excellent is your loving-kindness. In the midst of your Throne room, you fill the house with the beauty of your glory. And as I behold that glory, I’m being changed into your likeness.

It could have been anybody. Not that there’s anything special about me, Nah! But grace found me at the time I had no strength, lest I be esteemed above what I am. Arrogance should not come out of my mouth; for the LORD is a God of knowledge, and with him actions are weighed. I hate empty Philosophy, for it’s all the same with witchcraft and magic. But it’s  written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord. For it is not the one who commends himself who is approved, but the one whom the Lord commends.”  2 Cor. 10:17-18.

It could have begun in any flamboyant metropolitan churches in the country. Christian Faith Mission (International) based in a rural district of Bikita  in Zimbabwe  was nothing special. Just an insignificant little church made up of a few ordinary rural folks.

Battles began some years preceding this testimony- soon after our revival started. In one of the intended attacks,the queen of the Indian ocean – a marine spirit- visited us one Sunday service and caused  quite a stir among us. The queen explained how from Indian ocean she came to Zimbabwe via Nigeria to team up with other  powerful hideous spirits to come and completely destroy my  church for causing havoc in the kingdom of the devil. The queen explained whilst under arrest in the name of Jesus- that Satan was on a mission to take over as many churches as possible before the Lord returns, and that he had tried my church several times through his insidious, crafty and subtle operations. On this mission the queen brought  two Pythons -probably from the evil forest of Nigeria.The queen lost the battle, and after casting the spirits from an eleven year old girl, the queen went back to Indian ocean.Thank God, greater is Jesus who is in us, than the devil that is in the world. 1 John 4:4.

I was shocked and disgusted to learn that some of the famous Pastors and Prophets in the field today get their spiritual powers from the queen of the seas to enhance their ministerial powers-all for firm and filthy riches. Under the torment of the fire of the Holy Spirit the spirit mentioned the names of some of these preachers on the continent. Watch and see! God will soon expose  these agents of Satan before the end, He is God, great in battle.

A few years after the queen had lost her battle, Satan was back in church again to unleash his fury upon me, my family and the church. It was his third notable and painful attack in a series of years. Was I weak in faith or what? I lost the battle to a little extent because Satan was after me and the ministry. So my daughter died and the worst of all- the church split and Satan took his lot and I remained with God’s elect. It’s not over- my marriage broke- my sweetheart left me in the cold.

I was in a quandary about whether to quit God’s work or not, apparently it was the cause for my misery. My life drooped, and I became a loner. I asked God to relieve me of my pastoral work: and He asked me to proffer good reasons  why I should continue living after I quit. I would be like salt that would have lost its savour. Matthew 5:13. For fear of death and judgement, I adapted  myself to the ministerial work- limping like a wounded soldier in the battle. That’s what Apostle Paul meant when he addressed himself as – A PRISONER OF JESUS CHRIST. Ephesian 3:1.

Fellow soldiers out there! remember, true gallant soldiers  are not trained at  bible schools, NAP! God trains his own on the back side of the wilderness. Nothing wrong with colleges, they are alright, but one needs personal encounter with God. Moses refused to take the people to Canaan unless he saw first the glory of God. Exodus 33:18. Even Apostle Paul- after his conversion, he went to Arabia, probably in the wilderness of  Sinai for an encounter with God. Take note, it was the same Paul who graduated under Gamaliel- doctor of law in Jerusalem. See Galatians 1:17 and Acts 22:3. Every man of God needs  personal experience with God before going down into the  battle field.

When the pangs of distress seized me after these battles, I desperately needed God. Nonetheless, God watches over His own , it’s written that the Lord is nigh to them that are of a broken heart; and saves such as are of a contrite spirit. Psalm 34:18.

It then happened, as I was walking in the corridors of time, I crossed the chasm of time and slipped into eternity. I found myself walking in the corridors of Heaven. It happened in a blink of an eye. That’s how angels travel.

The corridor brought me to God’s Throne room. At first instance, my attention was arrested by this piteous sight. I saw to my right hand side opposite God’s Throne, people seated in darkness. I wondered why. This reminds me of people called CIMMERIANS- meaning gloomy, or very dark. The Cimmerians are people somewhere in the West, believed to dwell in perpetual darkness because of the city which is ever wrapped up in a mist and fog, and the sun never shines in there.

Well, I got to know later, that these were religious people on earth who claim to be heavenly bound but live in darkness because they have not experienced or received the true light of salvation. It’s written- In the light of a king’s face there is life. Proverbs 16:15. So these religious cimmerians  have no life because they fell short of  God’s light from his presence.
And this is the judgement: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. For everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his works should be exposed. But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God. John 3:19-21. And if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanses us from all sin. I John 1:7. Satan through false religions and beliefs has blinded so many people’s minds, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine upon them.  2 Corinthians 4:4.

At times we rush to condemn people living in spiritual darkness, when we are doing nothing to  spread the gospel of Jesus Christ. How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed? And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard? And how are they to hear without someone preaching?  And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!” Romans 10:14-15. How true! Many preachers today look for eloquent mouths instead of beautiful feet.

Well,after a glimpse of souls in darkness, I turned to my left to behold this captivating and mesmerising splendour of God’s glory  around the Throne. Yes- Honour and majesty are before him: strength and beauty are in his sanctuary. Psalm  96:6. Righteousness and justice are the foundation of God’s throne, and his faithful love and truth go before You.

The entire throne room was filled with the brightness of his throne. God was wrapped up in a bright light as if it were a robe, Oh, I saw what prophet Ezekiel saw. In the midst of the throne there sat one like a man full of light that no man can directly look into. I cast my eyes at the foot of his throne in reverence. The I saw a hand reaching for the floor of the throne room and I watched with curiosity. A veil was rolled off like a carpet from the floor . Wow! More light and brightness flooded the throne room. At that instance, something caught my attention. At his feet lay an ornament flanked with two red flowers on either side. The atmosphere around the throne was so inviting that I could not resist stepping forward to see this ornament.

When I drew nigh the throne, a voice spoke from the throne, ” I have your name here, and that ornament is your name tag.” Wow! I fell at his feet and bowed down- my face touching the floor. As a father would play with his son, I felt something touching my bowing back.Thank goodness! It was God’s cheek against my back. He embraced me and I experienced an ecstatic electrical fantasy of joy flooding my soul, and we both broke into laughter simultaneously. My goodness! Can God laugh with his subjects? It was beyond my conception.

One thing I know: My name is written in the book of life.  Revelation 20:15  ” And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.”

Friend, give your life to Jesus, for here have we no continuing city, but we seek one to come. Angels rejoice in Heaven over one sinner who repents, and Jesus will also confess you before the Father’s angels in Heaven.

I praise the Lord for the honour he bestowed upon me, that during the time I was weak and discouraged, his glory I beheld. The fellowship with my maker at his Throne  refreshed and nourished my life. My heavenly name starting with letter “E” He showed me, and the joy of my salvation he restored. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor anything created, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39.

May God remember all men and women; the five fold ministry of Jesus Christ and all who are undergoing trials and temptations in the service of God. Be of good cheer, you are strong in the Lord:  Jesus overcame, and you will  overcome too. And having spoiled principalities and powers, he made a shew of them openly, triumphing over them in it. Colossians 2:15.

To God be the Praise.


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